DBL645 (mono): A Ghost Story (fiction)

In 2020, I was asked to write a short Christmas ghost story for a podcast called Hallowed Histories. The following year, I wrote a further four tales and combined them with the earlier piece into a slim volume called (imaginatively) “Ghost Stories for Christmas.” Some people said some very nice things, and so in 2022 I followed it up with a novella entitled “The Festive Symphony”, and, in 2023, with another volume containing two more novellas and a short story. “DBL645 (Mono)” was the short story in that 2023 book (“In the Bleak Midwinter: More Ghost Stories for Christmas”). I thought it would be nice to put the story on my blog so that people can pass half an hour or so and/or use it as a sampler for the “Ghost Stories for Christmas series.” Enjoy – and be careful of records with white labels!
Shane

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DBL645 (Mono)

It was the first that time that Gareth Grisham had gone to a record fair since the covid pandemic, and he would have been the first one to admit that he was disappointed.  

It wasn’t what was on offer that was a problem, or that there were less sellers.  In fact, there were probably more sellers squeezed into the small hall than normal.  No, it was the fact that there had been three periods of lockdown, and many of the dealers seemed to have not taken that opportunity to go through their stock to get rid of the rubbish and the damaged, and, even worse, they still hadn’t sorted their stock into genre or some other form of sensible order.  Buyers were, instead, meant to wade through a dozen boxes or more of LPs at each stall in order to see if there was something they might be interested in among them. 

At one stall, he asked the seller:

“Is there any jazz or classical here?”

“Don’t know mate,” the reply came.  “You’ll have to look through.”

Gareth had started, but it was a painful process filing through each and every record.  He looked at the seller, and thought he was about forty, maybe forty-five. 

“Yes,” Gareth muttered to himself, “wait until you get to seventy-five, and then you’ll realise how much pain you get in your arthritic fingers by wading through a dozen boxes of records because the seller couldn’t be bothered to sort them out – not to mention how your knees will ache because you’ve been standing in one spot.”

He limped along to the next seller.  There wasn’t much hope of finding what he wanted there either, but he thought he would ask anyway. 

“Do you have any classical or jazz?” he asked.

“No, mate,” came the reply. 

Everyone called him “mate” at a record fair. 

Gareth thanked him and started to move towards the next stall.

“Actually, there is just one record,” the seller shouted after him.  Gareth stopped and turned back.  “I don’t know much about it.  It’s not really my area, as you might have gathered.  It’s this one.”

The man reached beneath the table and produced a record.  It was LP size, and in a plain white paper sleeve.

“It’s a test pressing,” the man said.  “White label.  But I don’t know what’s on it.  Some concerto, or something, I reckon.”

He pronounced the word “concert-oo.”

Gareth took the record from the man.  Yes, it most definitely appeared to be a test pressing.  A single-sided one.  But there was no indication of what music the record contained.  The only information was the record number, handwritten on the label: “DBL645 (mono).”

Gareth was interested.  He didn’t know why, but he was.  Perhaps it was because he didn’t recognise the prefix “DBL.”  Did it simply mean that the record was part of a double set?  That might make sense, but he wasn’t convinced.  No, the record was something of a mystery, and Gareth quite liked mysteries.   

He took the record out of its paper sleeve, and held it up to the light.  It appeared to be in excellent condition.  Barely played, if at all.

“And you really have no idea what’s on it?” he asked the seller.

“Not at all, mate.”

Gareth sighed.  He wasn’t particularly keen on spending money on something when he didn’t know what he was buying.  It was probably throwing money away on tat.  Gareth had bought a lot of tat at record fairs. 

“How much?” he asked.

“A tenner to you, mate.”

The seller looked almost excited at the thought that someone was interested in the record.  Had business really been that slow?  Gareth thought there were more people browsing than normal.  He looked down at the record, and then handed it back to the seller.

“I’m curious,” he said, “but I can’t spend ten pounds on something when I don’t know what it is.  I’m sorry.”

“A fiver, then, mate.”

Gareth felt a shiver run through him.  There was something about the way the man said it.  Almost like he was desperate to get rid of the record.  There was a vibe of “please, I want to be shot of it.” Why would that be?  Gareth shivered again.  Something was wrong, and yet he reached into his trouser pocket and produced a five-pound note. 

“OK,” he said.

He handed the money over, and put the record in his bag. 

“Thank you,” he said, and then walked away. 

Gareth gave a cursory glance at the remaining stalls, but resigned himself to the idea that he wasn’t going to bag a significant amount of records.  He was better off sticking to charity shops.  Charity shops had been the source of some of Gareth’s most interesting finds over the years.

By the time he left the hall, it had started snowing.  The weather forecast had threatened snow, but Gareth had assumed that it was going to be a false alarm.  So often, Norfolk seemed to miss the weather that the rest of the country had.  Not this time, it seemed, for the snow was coming down quite heavily, and the sky appeared to promise much more of it to come.  Gareth decided that staying in the city for lunch would probably not be a good idea under the circumstances.  Norwich so often ground to a half after an inch of snow, and he didn’t want to be stranded.  He was too old for such shenanigans.

As he started the walk to his bus stop, he wondered how long the buses would be running for.    He hoped it would be long enough to get him home.  That was all that he was really interested in.   The snow was already laying on the pavement, and he didn’t like it one bit.

Ten minutes later, he reached the bus stop, but his heart sank when he saw the extended queue of people waiting there.  He wondered if it meant that the previous bus hadn’t turned up, or just that everyone else had the same idea that he did: to get home as quickly as possible.  The other bus stops on the street were quite crowded, too.  It was hardly surprising, for the snow was even heavier now.  Gareth realised that he wouldn’t have wanted to be driving in those kinds of conditions. 

He looked down the road, willing his bus to turn the corner and come towards him.  Instead, a black cab turned into the road.  Gareth hadn’t taken a cab in years.  If truth be told, he didn’t like spending money on them.  They were too damned expensive.  Even so, he didn’t hesitate to put his arm out to signal for the taxi to stop for him.  He didn’t have much hope that it would do so, and assumed that it was already taken.  He felt a huge relief when it pulled into the side of the road in front of him. 

Gareth opened the door.

“Thank you so much for stopping,” he said, as he got in.  “I didn’t think I was going to be lucky waiting for a bus.”

“It’s coming down pretty heavy,” the driver said, turning around and smiling.   “Where are you going, Sir?”

Sir.  Gareth was much happier being called “Sir” than “mate,” as he had been at the record fair.

“I’m in Brandley,” he said. 

“OK.  Brandley it is,” the driver said.  “Let’s hope the snow hasn’t already cut off those country roads.”

“Yes,” Gareth replied.  “Let’s hope.”

He put on his seat belt, and got himself comfortable for the ride home. 

The journey was a slow one, not because the roads were impassable, but because the visibility was so limited due to the snow coming down. 

“It looks like it’s set in for the day,” the driver said.

“Yes, rather a surprise, really.  Normally we escape the worst.”

As they worked their way through the city traffic, Gareth looked down at the bag beside him. 

“And to think I got caught in this weather for the sake of one measly record,” he thought to himself.  “It had better be worth it.”

He pulled the record out of the bag, and looked at it again. 

“You got something nice there?” the driver asked him.

“To be honest, I have no idea,” Gareth told him.  “It’s a bit of a mystery as to what it is.”

The truth of it was that he was rather looking forward to switching on his computer and doing a search for the record number that was written in pen on the white label.  He had been a researcher for a television company many years earlier, and, once researching got in the blood, it was difficult to get rid of it.

“It’s probably nothing of interest,” he said.  “But it was cheap enough to be worth a punt, as they say.”

“I hope so for your sake,” said the driver.  “After all, it’s going to cost you a fortune to get it home, I’m sorry to say.”

Gareth looked up at the meter in the front of the car.  Ten pounds already, and they were only just on the outskirts of the city.  Another five or six miles yet.  It wouldn’t have cost him anything on the bus with his bus pass.  Still, it couldn’t be helped. 

“If it was a CD, I could have played it for you on the way home,” the driver said, with a laugh.

“If it was a CD, I wouldn’t have bought it,” Gareth thought.

Gareth didn’t approve of compact discs, and he didn’t even really know what streaming was.  And he didn’t want to.  He was too old to make changes to his listening habits at his age. 

The journey home would normally have taken about twenty minutes, but that day it took nearer an hour.   The cost was horrendous, but he paid it happily, just relieved to have got home at all.  He climbed out of the black cab, and wished the driver a safe drive back.

“Thank you,” the driver said.  “I’ll be glad to get home tonight, that’s for sure.”

Gareth walked rather gingerly down the footpath to his bungalow.  Already, the paths were slippery.   They would be even worse after the children had made a slide out of them.  They never thought about old people like him – but, he admitted to himself, neither did he when he was their age.  Each generation was the same in that regard.

He unlocked the front door, and went inside, pulling off his shoes in the hallway so that he didn’t bring the snow into the house.  He took off his coat, and put his feet into his slippers.  Then, he picked up his bag with the record in it, and went through into the kitchen, putting it down on the table. 

He switched the kettle on, and went through into his study and switched on his laptop computer.  It was pretty ancient, and took a long while to boot up, but it was just fine for what he needed.  When the old thing finally packed up, then he’d get himself a new one.  Not before.

Back in the kitchen, he poured the water from the kettle into the teapot and put a tea cosy over the top.  He knew that he was old-fashioned, but tea made in a mug just never tasted the same.   It was a bit too late for him to change such things now. 

With his cup of tea in one hand and the record in the other, he went back into his study.  He had no idea why he called it a study, really.  It was little more than a box room with the computer desk and a couple of bookcases with mostly reference books in them.   There wasn’t space for anything else. 

He sat down at the computer, and brought up Google. 

“I wonder what we ever used to do without Google,”  he thought to himself. “Used libraries, I suppose.”

He typed the record number into the search box. 

DBL645.

When the search results appeared on the screen, he wasn’t surprised to see that there was no mention of a record.  He moved on to the next page, but there was nothing there, either.   Gareth typed “DBL645” into the search bar again, and this time added the word “record.”  Again, there was nothing. 

He could have kept trying, but, deep down, he knew that it really wasn’t worth the effort.  There was no such record.  He had known that from the start.   Gareth knew that left only a couple of possibilities.  Firstly, it could have been a private pressing – maybe even a basic copy of a radio broadcast, perhaps.  Classical music was broadcast on the radio all of the while, and, back in the day, there were many “private pressings” of such performances – “private pressing” being another term for “bootleg,” but it made collectors feel better about themselves.  The other option was that this was a test pressing of a record that simply never got issued – but if that was the case, it was from a label that Gareth had never heard of, as the prefix “DBL” meant nothing to him, and there wasn’t much about the classical records world that he didn’t know.

He took a sip of his tea, and then looked down at the record in front of him.

“I guess the only thing to do is to play you,” he said.

He got up and took the record and the cup of tea into the lounge.  He put the tea down on the coffee table and placed the record on the turntable. 

Just as Gareth was about to place the stylus at the beginning of the record, he shivered, as if “someone had walked over his grave,” as the old saying went.   He didn’t think much of it, assuming it was just that he had got cold after being out in the snow.  It took a long while for an old body like his to get warm again.  He made a mental note to himself to take more notice of the weather forecast next time. 

He looked across the room and out of the window.  The snow was coming down heavier than ever now.  Gareth had a horrible feeling that it was going to last all day, and he was likely to be stuck in his bungalow for half the week.  Still, it wasn’t often that there were heavy snowfalls these days, and he told himself to count his blessings for that. 

Gareth looked down at the spinning record in front of him, took a deep breath, and placed the stylus at the beginning of the first track.   He waited, almost excited at finding out what music was actually on it. 

At first, there was nothing, just pops and crackles that told Gareth that the record hadn’t been played in quite a while, and dust and grime had got into the grooves.  It clearly needed a damned good clean.  Well, that could wait.  There would be plenty of time for that if he was going to be snowed in.

For a moment, Gareth wondered if there was any music on the disc at all.  Other than the crackles, he heard nothing…but then, after maybe ten or twenty seconds, he realised that something else was coming out of the speakers.  It was just a long, low note, but, oddly, he couldn’t quite work out what instrument was playing it.  Was it just a single organ note?  If so, it was weirdly recorded.  Or perhaps it was a double bass.  Gareth was annoyed with himself for not being able to work it out.   He wondered if his hearing was as good as it used to be. Then, voices could be heard.  Bass voices.  There were no words that he could decipher.  It was more like a chant of some kind.  After another ten or twenty seconds, they were joined by another group of women’s voices.  Sopranos.  Or were they boy trebles?  It was so hard to tell.  No wonder why the record was never released; it was recorded so badly.  The engineer or the producer clearly had no clue as to what they were doing.  It was a mess. 

Out of nowhere, there came what Gareth could only describe as a piercing cry – almost a scream of pain coming through the speakers.  He stepped back from the record player, somewhat in shock at what he had heard.  Surely that wasn’t music?  It definitely sounded like someone being hurt. 

As he stepped away from the turntable, there was a loud thud on the window.  Startled, he went to the window and saw that a bird had hit it.  The poor thing was lying on the ground outside, clearly dazed and in pain.  He drew the curtains and turned away from the window quickly.  There was nothing he could do about the bird.  He wasn’t going outside in the snow to either rescue it or put it out of its misery. 

The sound coming from the record was filling the room. There were more voices now, but still seemingly no words.   There were other noises, too.  It sounded like people moving around, but there were also scratching sounds, almost as if there was a mouse or rat trapped within the record itself.   Gareth put this strange thought out of his head quickly.  It was simply a live recording, and people were moving around.  A squeaky floorboard on the stage, perhaps.  Nothing more than that.

And then there came another cry.  This time there was no mistaking it.  It was a scream.  Someone on the record was being hurt.  Gareth rushed over, and removed the stylus from the record.  He had no idea what he had bought.  Perhaps some kind of modern performance art.  That might explain it.  In truth, he didn’t care what it was.  He simply didn’t want to hear any more.  It was giving him the creeps, and Gareth never got the creeps. 

He was thankful that he had only spent a fiver on the record.  It was quite possible that it was worth considerably more than that – but only to someone who knew what was actually on it.  He took the record off the turntable and put it back in its sleeve.  He filed it at the end of the shelves on which stood his substantial record collection. 

Leave it there,” he thought,  “where it can’t do anyone any harm.”

What had made him think that?  How could a record do him (or anyone else) any harm?  The idea was ludicrous, he knew that – and yet, when he sat down on the sofa to drink his tea, he couldn’t stop his gaze from settling on the record that was barely visible on the far side of the room.  He chastised himself for being a stupid old fool, but got up and took the record through into the study, where he couldn’t see it.  Out of sight, out of mind.

Returning to the sofa, he picked up the remote control for the television, and switched it on.  Gareth started flicking through the channels, moaning to himself that there wasn’t much more of worth on television now than when there were only three channels.  Half of them seemed to be showing slushy romantic Christmas films that he had absolutely no interest in. 

In the end, he settled on BBC2, which was showing Laura.  He hadn’t seen that film for years.  It didn’t stop him from remembering a lot of it, though.  That’s the problem with a mystery film that has such a big twist halfway through – you always remembered the twist so you couldn’t fully enjoy the film again.  Still, he knew it was a good movie, and that he would soon get engrossed in it, and it would take his mind off that awful record.

The next thing he knew, the end credits were rolling.  He had fallen asleep.  It was often the same.  He was always falling asleep when he didn’t want to – and then couldn’t sleep when he was meant to. The wonders of growing old.

Gareth got up off the sofa and made his way over to the window, where the curtains were still drawn from when the bird had hit the window.  He pulled the curtains apart so that he could peer out.

Everywhere was white – the sky, the ground, the trees, the plants.  He really was going to be snowed in, just as he used to be when he was a child.  Those kinds of snowfalls didn’t come around much anymore.

Gareth thought it might be a good idea to have an early supper, in case the electricity went off.   He moved away from the window and started to walk through into the kitchen, but stopped in his tracks when he saw that the record he had bought earlier in the day was on the coffee table.  He stared at it for a moment, wondering whether he had brought it back into the lounge himself, but he knew he had not.  The only option was that he had walked in his sleep, but he had never knowingly done that before.  However, there was no other rational explanation – and, right now, he was desperate for a rational explanation.  He didn’t want to spook himself. 

“I’m putting you back in the study,” he said, as he picked up the record. 

He placed the record down on the computer desk in the study, and then sat down at his laptop once more.  He realised that he could go on one of the internet forums dedicated to collecting records, and ask if there was anyone out there who knew something about the what he had bought.  He went to the website he was thinking of and started typing.  When he had finished, he posted the message and then copied the text, and pasted it into a thread on classical music on the Steve Hoffman forums as well.  There was always someone on there who knew the answer to every query.

Gareth was tempted to stay seated at the laptop, in case someone who was already online could give him an answer straight away, but he decided against it.  He’d come back in a few hours and check for a reply. 

He left the laptop switched on, and went through into the kitchen.  He was feeling surprisingly tired, and decided that he would make do with some soup for tea.  He had some bread rolls in the cupboard that he had bought the day before, and thought the soup would give him a good opportunity to finish them up.

Gareth found the tin of soup he was looking for, opened the can, poured the contents into a saucepan and put it on the cooker.  Ten minutes, and his supper would be ready. 

While he waited for the soup to heat up, Gareth watched the snow out of the kitchen window.  There were no curtains, as the curtain track had broken a few weeks before, and he needed someone to put a new one up.  He was too old to be getting up on stepladders.   He didn’t like not having curtains up, though – especially in the winter months.  It made everything seem so bleak.  The kitchen looked out over the fields behind the house, but all he could see was the grey sky and the snow slowly making its way down to the ground. 

He crossed the kitchen to stir his soup, but stopped in his tracks when he saw that the record was once again on the kitchen table. 

Gareth felt his pulse quicken.  He most definitely had not moved the record this time, but was also well aware that it couldn’t move itself.  The damned thing was giving him the willies.  If it wasn’t snowing so hard, he’d have taken it outside and put it in the bin, where it couldn’t do any harm.

But what had made him think that a record could do him harm?  The idea was ridiculous. 

“Oh well, if you’re that keen on being in the kitchen, I’ll leave you in here,” he said out loud,  to the record. 

Once over the initial shock of what had happened, he started stirring his soup, and then took down the bread rolls from the cupboard and buttered them.  He’d sort the record out after he’d eaten. 

He took his supper through into the living room, and switched the television on, knowing full well that he was not likely to approve of what was on during a Saturday evening.   He found a Beethoven concert being broadcast on BBC4, and settled down to watch it.  Was this the first piano concerto or the second one?  He never could remember which was which.  Wasn’t the second one actually written before the first one, or was that another composer entirely?

He was halfway through his soup when he picked up the first of the bread rolls and took a bite.  Something tasted wrong.  

He looked down at the roll in front of him.  It was green with mould, and he spat out the bread in horror.  What was going on?  It wasn’t like that when he took it out of the cupboard and buttered it.  He tried to remember if he had swallowed some of it, but couldn’t.  He hoped not.

Now, there was a noise in the kitchen.  The sound of something moving.  Gareth put the tray with his supper down on the coffee table, and got up from his chair and walked through into the kitchen.  The record that he had left on the table was now nowhere to be seen.  For a moment, Gareth was somewhat relieved at the idea of it having disappeared, but then realised that it was likely to have just moved – a strange thought to have about an inanimate object.

He was beginning to feel rather ill, and so made his way back into the living room.  His supper was still on the coffee table, and the rolls were as they had been when he had taken them out of the cupboard.  There was not a sign of mould on them.  Had he fallen asleep and dreamed it?  He was rather tired given everything that had happened during the day, but he knew he had not been dreaming.  Besides, that didn’t account for the record moving about by itself.

As he stood there, staring at what was left of his supper, he heard something move behind him.  Footsteps.  Gareth was sure that it was footsteps.  He spun around quickly – perhaps a little too quickly, as he felt more than a little woozy – but there was no-one in the kitchen. 

Now, the same noise was coming from the hallway near the study.  He walked down there, and opened the study door, only to see a glimpse of something.  What was it?  It wasn’t a man, he was sure of that, but he had only caught sight of…whatever it was…for a second before…before it disappeared into the wall.

No, he was mistaken.  He had to be.  He was seeing things, perhaps coming down with a virus of some sort.  That would be why he had hallucinated about the bread.   But he didn’t feel ill.  Besides, the record was now beside the laptop, and Gareth knew that he hadn’t put it there.  He had left it on the kitchen table. 

Gareth sat down at the laptop, and logged into the forums that he had posted in a little while earlier.  There were no replies.

“I think I’m going to bury you when the snow has cleared,” Gareth muttered to the record. 

He got up, and washed his supper things before making himself a pot of tea and sitting down to try to find something else to watch on the television.   He had left the record in the study, and had shut the door.  If it moved, it would have to go through a solid door to get out. Gareth was pretty sure that wasn’t going to happen.

The Beethoven concert he had been watching had given way to a repeat of a Proms concert featuring the National Youth Orchestra.  Gareth had seen it before, but he was happy to watch it again.  He rather enjoyed the youngsters giving their all on the Royal Albert Hall stage, and clearly enjoying themselves.  Now that things were returning to something approaching normality after covid, perhaps he might make a trip to London to see them in the next Proms season.  He could treat himself and stay overnight in a hotel, and maybe even visit the Victoria and Albert Museum the next day.  It had been a long time since he had gone there.  Yes, that would be on his to-do list for next year.

The orchestra finished their rather glorious performance of Ravel’s La Valse, and Gareth waited to see what the inevitable encore would be.  The National Youth Orchestra normally had something fun up their sleeves for the encore.  But Gareth didn’t recognise the piece.  Not at first, at least.  The camera had focussed on a lone double bass player, playing a long low note.  But something was wrong.  The close-up of the player got tighter and tighter, and then, looking directly into the camera, the double bass player smiled.  Not a normal, happy smile, but something that looked like what Gareth could only think of as “evil.”

And then it began.

The musicians started playing what he had heard on the record he had bought.  The camera angles were distorted in such a way that some of the faces looked as if they were melting. 

Gareth used the remote control to turn off the television.  Sweat was pouring down his face, despite the fact that he had been cold just several minutes earlier. He knew that it was panic.  Or was this a heart attack?  No, he was sure that it was not.    It was just caused by the record. 

He sat in his armchair doing the breathing exercises his GP had taught him a number of years earlier.   He was beginning to calm down, and his chest felt less tight, until the record started playing behind him on the hi-fi.  It was impossible, he knew.  He had left the record in the study, behind a closed door.  And yet, despite that, he was well aware that it had somehow found its way on to the turntable and was playing by itself. 

Unsteadily, he got up and walked towards the turntable, which was, indeed spinning.  The stylus was on the record, and it was playing.  The noise coming from the speakers was hideous, a strangely revolting sound that was, he thought, not natural in any way. 

As he staggered over to the turntable, and snatched the stylus off the record, he saw a figure moving through the kitchen.  As before, it was just a fleeting glance.  But he saw it better this time.  It looked vaguely human, about Gareth’s size and build, and yet something told him that it wasn’t human.

Gareth was frightened, really frightened.  He took the record from the turntable.  The only thing he could do was to take it outside and bury it.  He would get a spade from the shed, providing the shed door could be opened with all of the snow up against it.  Deep down, he knew that burying it in the snow made no sense.  It would be waiting for him when the snow eventually melted, but he pushed that thought aside.  He just needed it out of the house.

He stumbled to the back door almost in a trance, looking out for the mysterious figure he had seen.  As he opened the back door, the snow that had accumulated against it over the previous few hours fell into the hallway, but Gareth didn’t care.  He would sort that out later.

Still in his slippers, and without even getting a coat, he made his way down through the snow to the shed at the bottom of the garden.  He was aware that he wasn’t thinking straight, but he almost felt compelled to do what he was doing.  It was as if someone was controlling him, as if he was hypnotised.  His mind briefly brought up images of the somnambulist in The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari

Thanks to the direction of the wind, the shed door didn’t have as much snow against it as Gareth had feared.  He pulled at the door, and it opened with surprising ease.  He got the spade and then dragged it behind him further down the garden.  He wanted to bury the record as far away from the house as he could. He put the disc on the ground, and then smashed the spade into it. 

Damaging the record seemed to break the spell that he had been under, and he realised he hadn’t bothered to put a coat on and was outside in his slippers.  Gareth knew that staying outside in the snow without a coat and gloves would be a stupid thing to do, and so he left the record and the spade in the snow and walked back towards the house, chastising himself for being so stupid.

The back door was shut.  Gareth didn’t remember shutting it behind him when he came out.  In fact, he was sure that he hadn’t.  He turned the handle and pushed, expecting the door to give way as it should, but it remained shut fast.   He knew for sure that he hadn’t locked it.  He pushed again, throwing all of his weight against the door, but it wouldn’t budge. 

Panicking, Gareth wondered if he could clamber inside if he broke the kitchen window.  He wasn’t sure he could do it.  His legs and arms didn’t have the strength in them that they used to have. 

Even from outside, he could hear the record playing on the turntable, despite the fact that he knew that it had been left at the bottom of the garden.  

Gareth feared at that moment that he was going to die.   If he tried to make it to his next-door neighbour’s house, he knew that, somehow, he wouldn’t get there.  Something would stop him.  And here he was, outside in the snow, with slippers on and no coat.  He was sure that this was down to the effects of the record.  He felt once more that he had been hypnotised. 

He looked again at the kitchen window, wondering how he could break it and scramble inside.   There was an old metal watering can a few feet away from him.  He picked it up and started hitting the window with it, in the hope that, eventually, the glass would break.  He had been hitting the window with it for a couple of minutes when one of the panes of glass cracked.  Gareth thought that it was his chance. 

He started working on the cracked pane, and managed to push the glass out, although he still didn’t know how he was going to get in through the window.  He would need something to stand on to give him a chance of getting inside, but there was nothing close by that he could use.  Perhaps there was something in the shed, but he didn’t have the energy to get there or to pull whatever he found back to the house.  With the snow now about six inches deep, each footstep felt like a mile. 

“Let me in, you bastard!” he shouted through the kitchen window to whatever was inside and waiting for him.

Gareth watched in horror as the figure he had previously only glimpsed walked into the kitchen.  It looked human, about five feet ten inches tall.  It had a slim build, and a mop of rather unruly grey hair.  It smiled at him and waved its bony fingers.  Gareth stepped back, not knowing what to do.  The figure he was looking at…was himself

How could he be inside when he was standing out in the snow?  Was he hallucinating?  Gareth didn’t think so.  

The falling snow was covering his face, and he attempted to wipe it away, but, as he raised his arms, he realised that his hands were numb.  He could barely feel them at all.  It was hardly surprising given the weather.  He tried to rub them together to get some feeling back in them. 

His doppelganger watched him from the kitchen, and laughed when Gareth realised that he couldn’t feel his hands…because they were no longer there.  It wasn’t as if they had been cut off, they had simply faded away. 

Gareth watched in horror as his arms also began to disappear, starting from his wrists and moving up towards his shoulders.  It wasn’t, he realised, that they couldn’t be seen.  He wasn’t turning into The Invisible Man; he was simply being erased. 

He fell to the ground as the same process began with his feet.  As they vanished in front of his eyes, he wanted to scream, but couldn’t.  His mouth was gone, too.

The only sounds he could hear was the laughter of his doppelganger and the sound of the record playing.

Epilogue

Post made by “Neil 1975” on the Classical Collectors Forum, 9.15pm, December 20th.

Hey Gareth.  Not seen you posting on here for a long while.  It’s good to see you back! 

I’m guessing the record you mention that you picked up at the fair yesterday is some kind of joke. 

There was a rumour on the internet about a record with that number about ten years ago.  Utter nonsense, of course, but it was said that, when played, the record summoned some kind of evil spirit.  Ridiculous, right?  The weird thing is that some very well-known collectors believed it. 

The spirit was said to manifest itself as a double of the owner of the record, and then was thought to “replace” them in some way.  “Invasion of the Body Snatchers” type of thing.  It was said that the “DBL” in the record number was a reference to this “double.” I’m not sure what the “456” is meant to represent.  But, as I say, a couple of well-respected people believed the tale, which I find odd.

I know you won’t let anything of that nature bother you, but let me know what’s actually on the record, as I’m curious to find out.   I bet if you put it on eBay, there’ll be someone out there willing to pay a good sum for it.  You know what people can be like with rumoured haunted objects. Or perhaps you could put the audio on YouTube.  You might become an internet sensation!

Anyway, that’s all I know about it – or have heard about it, I should say.  Let me know how you get on with the record. It’s good to hear from you again.

Have a good Christmas, mate.

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The Stranger in the Snow (A Christmas Ghost Story)


There are currently three books in the “Ghost Stories for Christmas” series. The first (entitled Ghost Stories for Christmas) contains five stories. The second, The Festive Symphony, is a novella, and the third, In the Bleak Midwinter, contains two novellas and a short story. All three volumes are available through Amazon stores. The story below, The Stranger in the Snow, is from the first book in the series. 
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THE STRANGER IN THE SNOW

The cottage was perfect.  It was exactly what I was looking for – somewhere that I could rent for a few months in order to write up the research that I had been working on for well over a year.  The research itself had gone well, but I was struggling to get my findings down on paper. 

My wife and I had no children of our own, but my brother and sister-in-law had been killed in a car accident about two years earlier, and their two children had been living with us ever since.  If truth be told, that was the main reason why the monograph was so difficult to write. 

I was used to a quiet house, but now, with a ten-year-old and eight-year-old running around, it was anything but.  Of course, the house would normally have been quiet during the day, and I could have worked then, but that wasn’t the case during the pandemic, when kids were staying at home rather than going to school – and people like me were being encouraged to work from home, also. 

It was Susan, my wife, who had come up with the idea of me finding a cheap, quiet house somewhere, so that I could get my work done.  She suggested that I go and stay there during the week and come home at the weekends.  A couple of years earlier, we wouldn’t have been able to afford it, but my brother and his wife had left us a considerable amount of money, and so my “moving out” seemed less of an extravagance than it would have done before, and Susan was rather enjoying parenting in a way that I most definitely was not – even if I had nothing against the two children who were now in our care. 

Susan and I had always wanted children of our own, but it had never happened – although it wasn’t through a lack of trying.  Various options had been open to us – IVF, and so on – but we had chosen not to go down those routes.  We were very much of the view that, if it happened, then great.  Otherwise, we wouldn’t be bitterly unhappy.  Perhaps fate had stepped in, and we hadn’t had children of our own for the reason that we would become the guardians of my brother’s children at a later date.  I’m no great believer in fate, but sometimes you do have to wonder, considering how things work out.

After being shown around the cottage, I told the letting agent that I would like it for three months – which was the least amount of time that the owner would consider renting it for.  It was a nice property – too large, really, with three bedrooms – but it was only about ten miles away from my wife and the children.   Despite this, the cottage was, in many respects, in the middle of nowhere.  It was two miles from the nearest village, and had no bus route running close by.  The letting agent told me that it had been part of a school at one point, but the other buildings (including the main school building) had burned down back in the 1970s.  It didn’t seem strange to me at the time that nothing had been built on the land in the intervening years.   Apparently, that land now came with the cottage that I was to rent, and that suited me just fine.  It meant that there would be no disturbances from neighbours.  

When I got home after the viewing and told my wife the news, she seemed overjoyed, although she questioned whether there was really much point in going with just ten days or so to Christmas, but I said I wanted to get started straight away.  Perhaps other men might have felt put out that their wife was happy that they were moving out for a few months, but our work was important to both of us.  We told the children over supper than night that I would be going to live in the cottage during the week and returning at weekends, and the arrangement would begin on the following Monday.  The kids thought, at first, that this was our way of saying we were getting divorced, but we reiterated that was not the case.

The weather forecasters had been saying all weekend that there would be heavy snow-storms on the Monday afternoon, and so I set off reasonably early to avoid them.  I arrived at the cottage at about ten o’clock in the morning, and, by midday, I had unpacked what few things I had brought, and had got settled in somewhat.  There was an old writing desk in one of the bedrooms, and so I set my laptop up on that, and managed to turn the rest of the room into a usable office.  I filled the fridge in the kitchen with the food and milk I had brought with me, and plugged a blu-ray player into the television in the living room.  I might have finished the research element of my project but there would still be a need to re-watch films (or parts of films) that I was writing about.  The box of DVDs and blu-rays that I had brought with me were unpacked and placed on some empty shelves that were in the living room. 

Given that it was approaching midday, I decided that I would have an early lunch and then start work in the afternoon.  I realized that there was no microwave in the kitchen, and debated whether it would be a good idea to buy a cheap one from Amazon, given that cooking was hardly something I was good at. Still, I had no objection to living on beans on toast if I had to.  About twenty minutes later, I was sitting in front of the television, watching the news while I ate.  There was much doom and gloom, not just about the virus, but also about the forthcoming bad weather, which was supposedly about two hours away from where I was.  I was, oddly, rather looking forward to it.  The remoteness of the cottage made me feel that any such snow storm could be quite impressive to watch.  Perhaps it would put me in the right frame of mind to write about the old horror films I had been researching. 

I got up from the chair, went into the kitchen to wash up, and then went upstairs and switched on my laptop, opening the box file of notes while it booted up.  I took out the large stacks of papers and placed them on the table next to the computer.  A picture of Conrad Veidt in The Man who Laughs stared up at me.  It was a print-out of the front page of a movie magazine from the late 1920s.  The film had always given me the creeps, despite the fact that it was not a horror film in the strictest sense.  It was really a historical melodrama based on a Victor Hugo novel, with Veidt playing a man who had been disfigured after a wide grin was carved on to his face as a boy.  I found it far more disturbing than any film featuring Dracula, Frankenstein’s monster or the Wolf Man.  I turned the page over so that I didn’t have to look at it. 

While the laptop chugged away as it booted up, I went over to the CD player I had brought with me, and inserted a disc and started it playing.  I bought too much music – I was well aware of that – and much of it I never got around to listen to.  Now was the perfect opportunity to catch up.  I had brought with me a large, boxed set issued by Decca of some fifty or so discs of opera and lieder recitals, some of which went back to the 1940s.  I hadn’t had the chance to play them at home, and so was looking forward to ploughing through them during the coming weeks.  I made up my mind to start with the first disc and work through them in order.

With the disc playing, I opened the Word document that contained what little work I had completed on my book.  I read through it a couple of times, and decided that I would delete the whole thing and start again.  It wasn’t that the few thousand words I had written were particularly bad, but they weren’t particularly good, either.  I felt that I needed a fresh start.  With a new file opened, I started typing. 

After an hour or so, I had written about eight-hundred words, and was pleased that I had got into something of a rhythm.  I didn’t really want to stop while the going was good, but the bathroom was calling, and so I saved my work, went to the bathroom and then made my way downstairs to make a cup of tea.  As I went back upstairs to the room in which I was working, I realized that it was getting darker outside, and it was clear that the bad weather that had been forecast was fast approaching.  The view from the window in front of me was rather impressive.  The snow clouds were making their way across the fens towards the cottage.  The wind had certainly got up, and the couple of trees in the garden of the cottage were being battered by what had now become a gale.

I was almost mesmerised seeing the clouds approach in this way, and the progress I had made with my work just an hour before was now halted by the spectacle outside.  The snow was beginning to fall now, and it splattered against the window with considerable force due to the heavy wind.  I closed the screen of my laptop, knowing that I wouldn’t be able to concentrate until the snow had passed – or, at least, until it was dark outside, or I had got bored by it.  I just sat there, watching the storm play out.  

It didn’t take long for the ground to be covered in snow, and, after a relatively short amount of time, I realized that I could easily be snowed in if it continued to fall for many hours.  Perhaps that was what I needed in order to get my work done.  As the CD I was playing came to a halt, I thought that perhaps I should ring Susan and make sure she was alright. 

“What’s it like where you are?” she asked me after we had said hello.

“The snow’s falling at quite a rate,” I told her.  “But it’s very beautiful out here in the middle of nowhere.  No, not beautiful exactly.  But…”

“Picturesque?” Susan asked.

“Something like that, I suppose.  I’m a bit worried I might get snowed in.”

“At least you’ll have no excuse to not get your work done.”

“Well, unless there’s a power cut,” I said.

“Yes, that’s true,” Susan said, a little concerned.  “Just keep everything charged up as much as you can.  Your phone and your laptop.”

“I’ve already thought of that.  How are the kids?” I asked.

“They’re outside building a snowman in the back garden.  I’m quite glad the schools have already finished for Christmas.  It stops any of that will-they-or-won’t-they be open or closed rubbish. But all is fine here.”

A minute or two later, I ended the call, buoyed by my brief contact with the outside world, even if I had only been away from it for six hours or so.  I plugged the mobile phone back into its charger – at least I’d have a day of two’s worth of battery if the electric went off.

By now, it was nearly dark, and I went through the house, drawing the curtains, doing my best to keep the heat in and the cold out.  As I did so in the living room, I thought I saw someone – or something – pass through the garden.  I would have said walk through the garden, but whatever it was didn’t seem to be grounded.  I wondered if it was a large bird of some kind, perhaps even an owl.  I peered out through the window, but it was too dark to see anything properly, and so I tried to forget about what I had seen. 

I went through into the kitchen and thought that, now I had stopped work for a while, I should think about what to have for supper.  I soon learned in the coming days at the cottage, that, when living alone and having stopped working, the mind generally thinks about food.  In the fridge was a shepherd’s pie, which Susan had made the week before, and frozen.  I thought it would be particularly suitable for such a cold, snowy evening, and so I switched on the oven and went back into the living room while it reached its desired temperature.

I switched on the television, and sat through the daily statistics about the virus that was on the news channels, and then watched the reports about the weather conditions.  It was going to get worse before it got better, the weatherman told us, and I realized that I should get prepared to be stuck in the cottage for several days unless the rest of the storm somehow bypassed us.  I sneaked another peak out of the window, and saw that the snow was still falling, and it wouldn’t be long before the country roads would be impassable.  It seemed to take less snow each winter for this to happen. 

A couple of hours passed as I ate the shepherd’s pie in front of the television while watching a rather dismal 1940s B-movie that was being shown on one of the cable channels.  I had seen worse – much worse – as part of my research, but, even so, this was very much a watch-because-there’s-nothing-better-on type of film. 

When the film ended, I washed up the plate that I had just used, and was about to go back upstairs to start work again when there was a knock on the front door.  Surprised that anyone would be out in the inclement weather, I went to the door and opened it. 

Standing in front of me was a policeman.  A constable, I thought.  He certainly didn’t seem to act with an air of authority, and almost seemed embarrassed to be there.

“Good evening,” I said.  “Can I help you?”

“I’m sorry to trouble you, Sir,” the constable said.  “But I was wondering if I might take a moment or two of your time?”

“Of course.  Please come in.”

The constable smiled at me and then came into the hallway, wiping his feet thoroughly on the doormat.

“It’s not getting any better outside, then?” I asked, trying to break the ice a little.

“Not at all, Sir,” the policeman said.  “It’s very nasty outside.”

“Come through into the living room,” I said.  “You’ll find it much warmer in there.”

He followed me through into the living room and I told him to sit down, which he did.

“Would you like something to drink?  A tea or coffee, perhaps?  Something to warm you up?”

“No, Sir,” the constable replied.  “I cannot stop long.  I want to get back to the village.  Before it gets too late.”

“Too late for what?”

“I meant the weather, Sir.  The roads will be blocked in a couple of hours at most, and I don’t fancy walking home.”

“Of course.”  I sat down in the chair opposite him.  “So, how can I help you?” I asked.

“Well, that depends.  How long are you planning to be staying in the cottage, Sir?”

“Two or three months, I think.  I have work to type up, and I’m not getting on very well at home, and so I have rented the cottage to give me some peace and quiet.”

“Ah! I see!” the policeman said.   “And you’re not from  around this area to start with?”

“No, not really.  We live in the city.  So about ten miles away.”

“I see,” he said, again.  “Well, I figured as much, and so I thought it would be a good time to come and have a little chat with you.”

“About what?  Have I done anything wrong?”

“Oh no.  Nothing wrong, Sir.  But with the weather as it is, I was wondering if you might be able to help us.  We are keeping an eye out for a young man, you see?  And I was thinking that you might see him?”

“I only arrived this morning,” I said.  “And I haven’t seen anyone.  Hardly surprising given the weather.  But I don’t think anyone lives close by, do they?”

“No, indeed.”

“So, has this young man gone missing?” I asked. 

The policeman seemed to tense up when I asked this question.

“Not yet, Sir,” he said, quietly.

I was rather surprised by his odd reply.

“Not yet?” I queried.

“Indeed, Sir.”

“But you’re expecting it to happen?  I’m afraid that I don’t understand.”

I wondered if I was being a bit slow on the uptake, but I believed that I was not.  Why would a policeman come to my door in order to tell me about someone that might go missing but hadn’t yet?   The conversation was not making sense.

The policeman took a moment to try and gather his thoughts. 

“We have reason to think that a teenaged boy of maybe seventeen or eighteen will go missing at some point in the following day or two, and that he will likely come here.”

I stared at him, and wondered if he was actually a policeman at all.   Perhaps I had inadvertently let a mad man into the cottage.

“Here?” I asked.

“I realise this sounds very strange, Sir,” the policeman went on.  “But the truth of the matter is that this has happened before in this kind of weather, and with the road to the village likely to be blocked by morning, we thought it was worth coming to see you in advance.”

“You’re telling me that when it snows, teenage boys go missing from the village?”

The policeman nodded his head. 

“That’s correct, Sir.”

“And they come here?”

“Yes.”

“Will this boy be dangerous?”

“Oh no, Sir, not at all.”

“How do you know?  He might have a concealed weapon.”

“That’s unlikely.”

“Why?”

“Because, in previous years, there have been no weapons involved.”

“Can I ask why this is going to happen?”

“I’d rather you didn’t,” the policeman said, rising to his feet.  “It would probably be for the best if I went now, or the car won’t get back along the roads.”

He walked back into the hallway, and I opened the front door for him.

“Look after yourself, Sir,” he said.  “And if the boy does turn up, it would be appreciated if you’d look after him.  Keep him warm, and all that.  Good night, Sir.”

And, with that, he was gone.

I shut the door and went back into the living room, rather bemused by the conversation.  If I was being totally honest, I would say that the policeman seemed thoroughly embarrassed by the information he had relayed to me, and  yet had seemed perfectly earnest.

I telephoned Susan and told her about the episode.

“Do you think someone’s playing a trick on me?” I asked her.

“Not on you,” Susan said.  “But on him.  I bet someone in the station had made a bet with him or dared him to come and tell you that story.  Something like that.  I’m sure that’s all it was.”

“Well, it was very bad timing,” I said.   “He could have had an accident getting here in the snow.”

“You know what some people are like.  They don’t think about things like that.  It was just a lark.  I bet that you’ll find out for sure before you come home for Christmas.”

I wasn’t quite so certain, but we said goodnight to each other, and ended the call.  It was around ten o’clock by this point and, although I was normally someone who didn’t go to bed until the early hours, I felt decidedly sleepy, and decided to turn in.  It had been a busy – not to mention, slightly odd – day, and I thought I would feel better the next day if I had a good night’s sleep.

Sadly, sleep didn’t come quickly, and I found myself lying awake going over what the policeman had said while he was at the cottage.  The more I went over it, the more I decided that it was not just some strange prank.  He had been genuinely worried that a young lad might try to come to the cottage in the snow. 

I got out of bed and went through into the room that I had made into my office.  I switched on the computer and, rather miraculously, found that the internet was still working.  I tried doing a Google search for missing teenagers from the village during previous winters, but I found none, although I realized that we hadn’t really had bad snow since the so-called “beast from the east” a few years back.  And so, I centred my search around that period in early 2018, in order to see if that brought up any results.  There wasn’t much, but there was a couple of small articles in the local newspaper.  The first one reported that a young man was missing from the village, and the second one, from a couple of days later, informed readers that he had been found a couple of miles away, and that he was suffering from hypothermia, but was expected to make a full recovery. 

I set about finding out which years had had heavy snowfall in the local area, and then seeing if I could find similar articles from the local newspapers about missing boys.  There certainly seemed to be some correlation, going back several decades.  There wasn’t always an article with every snowfall, but I assumed that the newspapers weren’t informed if the person had been found quickly.

The whole thing seemed very strange indeed, but I realised that I wouldn’t find out much more simply through using the internet.  I needed to speak to someone local who could give me more information. 

I had begun to get sleepy, and so went back to bed, but not before looking out of each window to make sure I couldn’t see a boy outside.

*

I woke up at about nine o’clock the next morning, and was quite surprised that I had managed to sleep right through the night, especially given it was my first night in the cottage and with the strange events of the previous evening.

The cottage didn’t have a shower, and so I ran a bath while I shaved and cleaned my teeth.  The hot water system was barely adequate, and so the bath needed a couple of kettles of boiling water to make it hot enough.  But once it was full, I soaked in it for at least half an hour, basking in the silence that was now only rarely present in my own house.  I loved my brother’s kids, but I loved the peace and quiet we had before they moved in with us, too.  I thought of this while I was laying there in the tub, and I felt saddened by my own selfish thoughts.  Those kids had lost their parents, and I was moaning to myself about the house being noisier. 

Eventually, I got out of the bath, got dressed, and went downstairs to fix some breakfast, opening the curtains in the downstairs rooms while I prepared the food.    The snow had been falling heavily all night, and it was still coming down.  When looking out of the kitchen window, there was no way of knowing where the garden path ended and the grass began.   The same was true out of the front window.  The garden, the footpath, the road and the field on the other side were all merged into one.  And standing about five or ten metres from the window, was a boy.

I had forgotten – or, at least, tried to forget – the weird visit from the policeman the night before.  A night of sleep had rather put it to the back of my mind.   I peered out of the window to make sure that he was really there, and not some strange optical illusion caused by the snow.  But he was definitely there, and staring directly at me.  He wasn’t moving, just standing still – not affected in any way by the cold weather, it seemed.  He wore no coat, and was there in his shirtsleeves and trousers.  I guessed that he was about eighteen years old, but it was difficult to be sure.     

I went into the hallway, put on some boots and a coat, and opened the front door.  It was like a blizzard.  It wasn’t just the snow, but the wind, which was blowing directly towards the house.  I was covered in snow in an instant.   But I had to go and get the boy indoors.

I went outside and pulled the door shut behind me.  As I trudged towards him, I saw that the boy wasn’t moving at all – not even shivering.  I thought for a moment that he might be dead already from the cold, but then I saw the breath coming from his mouth.  I grabbed hold of his hand, trying to lead him into the cottage.  He refused to move, as if he was in some kind of trance, and so I picked him up and carried him inside, closing the front door behind me.

By now, I could see that he was indeed about eighteen years old, slightly built, and, while he was wearing shirt and trousers, he had on neither socks nor shoes.  I put him down on the sofa in front of the fire while I worked out what I should do with him. 

My first thought was to call the police or an ambulance, but there was no mobile reception, probably due to the weather, and the house had no landline phone.  I ran upstairs and turned the computer on, but guessed that the internet would probably be down, too.  I wondered if I could get him to the nearest village for some help.  There would have been a doctor in the village.  But that was two miles away, and I had little hope that my car would get that far given the amount of snow there was on the road.  There was little doubt that my only course of action was to look after the boy myself. 

I tried to speak to him, but I got no response.  It was almost as if he was hynotised, with his eyes just staring straight ahead, and he didn’t seem to know that I was there.  

I turned up the heating in the house.  I didn’t really care if it was going to be unbearably hot for me, but I needed to get his body temperature up.  That was about all I knew when it came to what I thought could be hypothermia.    I went upstairs and took the quilt from the bed and brought it downstairs, but it was no use covering him with it if he was lying there in wet clothes.  I felt bad doing it, but I took off his clothes, and dressed him in a pair of my own pyjamas before covering him with the quilt and drying his hair with a towel. 

“What were you doing out there?” I asked.

I didn’t expect a response, and  I didn’t get one.  

“What’s your name?” I asked him.

Again, there was no response, but my efforts were to try and bring him around from whatever trance-like state he was in.    I went into the kitchen to make some tea, thinking a hot drink would help to warm him up.  I checked on him every now and then while I did so.  There seemed no improvement in him until I brought the cup of tea up to his lips and he almost instinctively took a sip, and his eyes looked into mine.  I started to believe that I might make progress after all.   I didn’t get him to drink all of the tea, but at least he had some of it.

I confess that I was somewhat curious as to who he might be, and so I went through his trouser pockets in search of some identification.  I found a set of keys and a couple of tissues in the front pockets, and a wallet in the back one.  Upon opening it, I came across a driver’s license that informed me that the young man on my sofa was Benjamin Haydn and that he was nineteen years old.  I put the wallet back into the pocket and walked back over to him, kneeling down on the floor beside him.

“Benjamin?” I asked, hoping that there might be some sense of recognition to his name, but I detected none. 

I was still unsure what to do with him, but with no working phone or internet, and the snow too deep for me to transport him either home or to a doctor, I decided the best thing that I could do was to simply keep him as warm and comfortable as I could.  Bearing this in mind, I took him off the sofa, carried him upstairs, and put him down on my bed, covering him up with the quilt.  I didn’t know what else to do, and this action seemed the most sensible. 

I went back downstairs, and switched on the television.  There wasn’t much of a reception.  There was a signal one minute but not the next, but I did manage to catch a few moments of the news, which usefully told me about the heavy snowfall that I was already very aware of.  There was an emergency number to use, but that wasn’t exactly helpful given that the phones weren’t working. 

I decided that the best thing I could do was to kill some time by writing up some of my monograph while we still had electricity.  I went back upstairs and sat down at the laptop and switched it on.  While it booted up, I gazed out of the window at the rather splendid view.  The snow had stopped falling – at least, for the time being – and it made it easier to see how great the snowfall had been overnight, as well as how cut off the cottage was.  

The window of the bedroom I was using as my office faced the back garden, and I wondered, perhaps for the first time, just why that large expanse of land hadn’t been built on since the fire that had destroyed the old school.  I was sure that the letting agent had told me that the fire had happened some fifty years ago.  It seemed odd such a prime piece of land remained unused.  It officially came with the cottage, but clearly no-one had made any attempt at using it as a garden.  It was just a mess of overgrown weeds on the other side of the small fence that once had marked the territorial boundaries of the cottage. 

Once the laptop had started up, I tried to concentrate on my work, while checking on my guest every hour or so.  I got a surprising amount of work done.  The house was deathly quiet – I didn’t put music on for fear of waking up Benjamin – and no vehicle came past the cottage due to the snow.  I assumed that a snow plough would reach me eventually, but I feared it might be a day or two away.  I was just thankful that we still had electricity.

After typing up four or five pages – almost a record for me in the given time frame – I went downstairs to make myself another drink and to try to come up with something that I fancied to eat.  I thought I would probably make do with a tin of soup, and use up some of the bread that I had brought with me the day before. 

It was as I was standing at the fridge that I heard footsteps from upstairs, which eventually made their way down the staircase.  I went into the living room to find Benjamin standing at the bottom of the stairs.  I smiled at him, in an attempt to be as unthreatening as I could possibly be.

“Hello,” I said.

My guest looked at me, but seemed confused.

“Where am I?” he asked. 

“You’re at a cottage about two miles from the village,” I told him.   “I found you outside in the snow this morning.”

“Why was I out there?”

“I don’t know,” I said.  “I’m sorry.  A policeman came here last night and pretty much told me to expect you.”

“He told you that I would come here?” Benjamin asked, understandably bewildered.

“Not you, specifically.  Just someone.  A young man, he said.  He told me that this happened quite regularly when there was this kind of weather in the area.”

At this comment, there seemed to be some kind of recognition in his face.

“So, this is the old school cottage?” he asked.

I nodded.

“Yes,” I said.  “How do you know?”

He looked as if he was feeling faint, and he grabbed hold of the banister at the bottom of the stairs.

“Why don’t you sit down?” I said, and guided him into a chair, which he almost collapsed into.  “Would you like something to eat or drink?  Something hot?  Tea or coffee, perhaps?”

“Tea would be nice, thank you,” Benjamin said.

“Anything to eat?” I asked him. 

He thought for a moment, not quite sure.

“I was going to have some tomato soup,” I said to him.  “Would you like some of that?”

Benjamin nodded his head.

“Yes. Thank you.”

“I’m Paul,” I said to him, as I went back into the kitchen.

“I’m Benjamin,” he said.

“Yes, I know.  I found your wallet.   I would have informed the police or got you a doctor, but all the phones are out.  And my car wouldn’t get through the snow.  So, I’m afraid you’re stuck with my company for a few days, possibly.”

He smiled at me.

“I’m sorry for the inconvenience of having me here,” Benjamin said.

“It’s fine,” I told him. “I’m just glad you are OK.  You didn’t even have a coat.”

I handed him his cup of tea.

“Thank you,” he said.  “They never have a coat.”

“They?”

“The people who are found here at the cottage.  I guess I’m just lucky that you were living here and saw me.  A few years ago, this happened and the boy died.”

“So, you know what all of this is about?” I asked.   

“Yes.  All of the villagers know about it.  But sometimes when this happens, it’s kept quieter than others.”

“Why?”

“It’s a long story,” Benjamin said.

We agreed that he would tell me the story after we had eaten. 

Benjamin said that he wasn’t particularly hungry, and yet he ate his soup quickly.  I asked him how he was feeling, and he said he was tired, but otherwise he felt OK. 

“You’re lucky,” I said.  “I really didn’t know that you were going to get better without proper treatment when I came across you this morning, but I’m guessing that you hadn’t been out there as long as I first thought.”

“I don’t remember anything about it,” he said.  “I remember getting out of bed at some point last night, and then waking up in your bed an hour or so ago.  I don’t remember anything else about it.  Perhaps it’s for the best.”

I agreed with him.  He sat there in silence for a few seconds, and then he took a deep breath and began his story.

“It’s all to do with the school that was here,” he said.  “Nobody really remembers it in the village.  It closed down just before the start of the Second World War, and so anyone still around would only have been young children back then.  I guess someone in their nineties might have a memory of it, but there’s only one person of that age in the village that I can think of, and she doesn’t have much memory of anything.”

“Why did it close down?” I asked.

“There was something of a scandal.  I guess that’s what you’d call it.  The man who ran the school was known in the village for being something of a tyrant.”

“He didn’t treat the kids well?”

Benjamin nodded.

“Something like that.  But he didn’t treat the teachers well, either.  Or anyone else who worked at the school.  Stories spread about him in the village.  They still do, but I don’t know how many of them are true and how many are gossip.”

“That’s always the case,” I agreed. 

“There were a couple of young people about my age working there, so the story goes.  They had been pupils there, and they stayed on there to help out.  Probably looking after the building or something.”

“Maybe even some teaching,” I told him.  “There were less regulations back then.”

“They lived at the school,” Benjamin said.  “That’s what I’ve been told, anyway.  It was the middle of winter, and the weather was like this.  The headmaster of the school went to find them late one night.  Nobody really knows what he wanted – it was probably just to speak to them about keeping the school warm or something like that.  But the story says that he found them together.  In bed, presumably.  He went mad, and sent them outside into the snow as a punishment, and made them stay there.  Just in whatever they were wearing.  No hat or coat or boots or anything.  He made them stand in the grounds all night and into the next day.  It was only when one of them collapsed that the other teachers got together and went against the headmaster.  The boys were brought in, but one of them died.  The headmaster was removed from the post, but I don’t know if he was charged with any crime.  The school closed down shortly after.”

It was a horrible story, but I had little doubt that it was true. 

“And now,” I said, “whenever there’s the same kind of weather, a boy from the village finds himself re-enacting what happened to the two young men back then?”

Benjamin nodded. 

“Yes.  Not just any boy of the same age.  It’s only those that are gay.  That’s why there have been times when it has been hushed up.  There were always stories that these things happened,  but often the people involved didn’t want it known.  Being gay in a village is still not always easy once people find out and the gossip starts.”

“And what about the school burning down?  Do you know anything about that?”

“Possibly.  It’s said that a boy died of hypothermia after being drawn to the school and standing outside in a blizzard, and that his mother or father came here in a rage and set fire to the main school building.  It’s only a rumour, though.  Village gossip.”

I sat there quietly, trying to take in the story that I had been told.  I had never been a believer of ghosts and the supernatural, but there must have been something in the tale for it to have been kept alive for eighty years – and for the local policeman to have come and warned me the previous evening.

“People in the village know that I’m gay,” Benjamin said, as if he was reading my thoughts.  “I reckon that’s why Harry came to see you.”

“Harry?”

“The policeman in the village.  He would know that I was gay and the right age, and that I could end up here considering the weather.”

“You told me that one of the people who ended up here died?” I said.

“Yes,” Benjamin said.  “That last happened five or six years ago.  Maybe a bit longer.  There was no-one in the cottage then.  Nobody’s lived in it for many years, but the owner died, and his family has decided to let it.  You’re the first person to live here for many years.  Lucky for me that you were here.  I could be dead, otherwise.”

*

It was another three days before the snow stopped falling completely and the snow plough reached us.  Luckily, the phone signal had returned prior to that and so Benjamin had been able to call his parents and tell them that he was safe.  He did a very good job of staying quiet during the day while I did some work, and then we ate dinner in the evenings and watched a film on the television. 

When I took him home, his mother was overcome with emotion, and didn’t stop thanking me for my efforts during the time I was there.  She tried to get me to stay to dinner, but I told her I needed to be getting back to Susan and the kids.  The incident in the cottage had made me feel as if I wanted to see them at the earliest opportunity – and I felt guilty for sometimes thinking of them as a distraction to my work. 

Before I left the village to go home, I stopped off at the small police station in the village, and thanked Harry, the constable, for having called on me during my first night in the cottage, in order to prepare me for what happened.

“Think nothing of it,” he said.  “I am just sorry that I didn’t think I could tell you the whole story at the time.  But I was worried you’d think I was barking mad.”

“Well, you probably saved young Benjamin’s life by coming to see me,” I told him.

“Well, at least something came out of the visit.  But you can only do so much, and I feel so bad about Martin.  His parents are distraught.”

I was confused.

“Martin?” I asked.  “Who is Martin?”

“Why, he’s Benjamin’s young man, Sir.  He went missing from the village on the same night, but nobody has seen or heard from him since.  I have to break that news to young Benjamin, now that he is home.  I didn’t feel it was right to tell him on the phone when he called us from the cottage to say that he was fine.  In all honesty, I have a horrible feeling that we won’t find Martin until the snow has melted.” 

I wondered if I could have helped Benjamin’s boyfriend, too, if I had only looked out for him.

When I returned to the cottage in the new year, I learned that Martin still hadn’t been found, even after the cold spell had ended.  Benjamin told me that he was hoping that his boyfriend had simply run away, but neither of us really believed that to be the case.

Short Story: The Gift

In a week or so, I shall be publishing a slim volume of ghost stories for Christmas. It contains five short stories – all of them are tales of horror with the exception of this one, the shortest of the set, that acts almost as a kind of coda. It is, perhaps, a fairy story more than a ghost story. Call it what you will. Whatever it is, it’s very different to the type of fiction I normally write, and I wanted this one to be “out there” without the need to buy the Kindle or paperback edition. The story was, quite literally, finished about an hour ago, so please excuse any rough edges that remain. Enjoy your festive season.

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THE GIFT

Once upon a time, not so long ago (quite recently, actually), an old man took his niece to see Father Christmas in his grotto in a department store. 

The niece was, by this point, eight years old, and the man knew that this would be the last year that she would be interested in going to see the man dressed all in red with the long white beard.  Children were not innocent for as long as they used to be.  In fact, the man was surprised that she still believed that Santa existed, and even wondered if she just wanted to go in order to get a free present from the visit. 

He hoped that he was just being cynical – he had been more cynical lately.

The queue was quite long to see Father Christmas, but not as long as it had been on previous years.  Another sign that even the great traditions start to die out eventually.  Perhaps it was more difficult to believe in Father Christmas after close to two years of a pandemic.  Most of the people waiting in the queue were wearing masks, which the old man was thankful for.  He wondered if some people would wear them permanently, now.  And, when they finally entered Father Christmas’s little grotto (there had clearly been budget cuts), they saw that he was wearing one, too – even if it didn’t fit particularly well due to his beard. 

The old man watched as his niece went and sat on a chair beside Father Christmas, and looked up at his face.  He assumed that she was scrutinizing the man in front of her.  Was the beard real?  Were his cheeks really that red?  How old was this Father Christmas?  Maybe forty at most.  He most certainly was just a man in a costume.

Father Christmas asked the girl her name, and how old she was, and she told him.  And then he asked her if she had been well behaved all year.  The old man smiled as she said:

“We’ve all had to be well-behaved this year, haven’t we?”

“Yes,” Father Christmas said.  “I suppose we have.”

He looked at the girl’s uncle and winked at him, as if to say, “you’ve got a smart one here.”

A short chat later, and it was all over.  Father Christmas picked one of the presents from the floor beside him, and handed it to the girl.  She said thank you, and asked if she would see him again next year.

“Well, I don’t know about that,” Father Christmas told her.  “There’s only so much time, and so many children to see.  Perhaps you have had your time of coming to visit me over the last few years.  Time to give the little ones a chance, don’t you think?”

The girl thought for a moment, and then nodded her head.

“Yes, I guess you are right.”

She turned to her uncle and reached for his hand. 

“Just wait a moment or two,” Father Christmas said to the girl.  “Why don’t you wait outside for a couple of minutes, while I talk to your uncle here?  I think he might need a present from me, too.”

The girl nodded, and went outside.

“How did you know I was her uncle?” the old man asked.

“I know lots of things,” Father Christmas said.

“But I was much more likely to be her grandfather.”

“Yes, you were.  But you’re not.  And Father Christmas knows more than you could possibly imagine.”

The old man smiled. 

“You speak as if I don’t know that you are just a man in a suit and a false beard,” he said.

“And how do you know that I am?”

“I’m seventy-five,” the man said.  “Not seven.”

“Does that matter?” Father Christmas asked him.  “I’ve been around for hundreds of years.  You know that.  Where do you think all of those stories come from?  There’s no smoke without fire, you know?”

The old man was bemused, and a little unnerved. 

“I should go and make sure my niece is alright,” he said.

“She’s just fine,” Father Christmas said to him.  “Now, why don’t you tell me what you would like most for Christmas?  You look to me as if you are rather sad.  As if you need something to restore your faith – not in a God or some religion, but your faith in life.  You are sad, are you not?”

The old man nodded.

“Yes,” he said.  “I guess I don’t hide it very well.”

“Nobody hides sadness very well.  And grief is even harder to mask.  You are grieving, aren’t you?”

“I lost someone close to me,” the old man said, his eyes tearing up.

“Someone very close, I think?” Father Christmas asked him.

“My husband.”

“Then, if you don’t mind my saying, you didn’t just lose someone close to you, you lost part of yourself.” 

The old man felt tears welling up in his eyes.

“Yes.  Yes, I suppose I did.”

“Had you been married long?”

“As long as it has been legal.”

“And before that?”

“We had been together forty years.  He passed away forty years ago to the day after I first met him.  He was my life.  And, I suppose, I was his.  I’m sorry, I shouldn’t be taking up your time.”

Father Christmas smiled at him.

“It is difficult to take up much of my time when I have as much of it as I do.  What’s a few minutes in hundreds of years?”

“I wish we had had hundreds of years together,” the old man said, a tear slowly rolling down his cheek.

“Some would try to tell you that you will have hundreds of years together in the future.”

“I don’t believe,” the old man said.  “I did once.  When I was a kid.  But not anymore.  I can’t believe in a God that brings so much misery to the world.  Who took my husband away from me.”

“He had been ill for some time?”

The old man nodded.

“Yes.  But just because you know that something is coming, that it’s inevitable, it doesn’t make it any easier.”

“I’m sorry to hear that.”

The man wiped a tear from his cheek.

“Thank you for listening,” he said.  “But I should let you get on with your work.  You have a long queue outside.”

The old man took a final look at Father Christmas, still somewhat confused by the conversation, and then walked towards the grotto door.

“Mr. Sullivan,” Father Christmas said.

The old man stopped and turned around to face him.  He had not told the Father Christmas his name. 

“You are Arnold Sullivan, are you not?”

The old man nodded.

“How did you know that?”

“I know lots more than you could possibly imagine,” Father Christmas said.  “And coming up with your name is, I’m afraid, little more than a parlour trick.  Something to get your attention.  You might not believe in any religion, but I would like to think that you might at least believe in me.”

The two men looked at each other, and Arnold Sullivan felt something happening to him.  He felt a kind of warmth enter his body, and it radiated through his chest, up into his head, and down his arms and legs.

Do you believe in me?” Father Christmas asked him.

Arnold Sullivan said that he did, although he wasn’t sure why.  This was, surely, a man in a Santa suit who simply happened to be able to read people well.  Just like a mind-reader at a fair.

“I cannot bring the love of your life back to you,” Father Christmas said.  “I cannot raise the dead.  I only wish I could.  But there is one gift that I can give you.  I will give you the gift of knowing that your loved one will always be with you.”

Arnold would normally have said that such a thing couldn’t happen, but something stopped him.  “Believe in me,” Father Christmas had said.

Arnold nodded his head.

“Thank you,” he said, and walked out of the grotto.

Arnold Sullivan found his niece in the toy department of the department store, and she asked him what he had said to Father Christmas after she had left.  He told her that they just wished each other a Merry Christmas, and then suggested that they go and get some lunch. 

A few hours later, he took his niece back to her parents, and had dinner with them.  They asked him how the day had gone, and he said he had thoroughly enjoyed himself.  They kept asking him if he was alright, saying that he seemed distant.  Arnold told them that he was just tired, and that he wasn’t as young as he used to be. 

When he got home, it was to a quiet and empty cottage – the cottage that he and his husband had bought together many years earlier.  The home they were to spend their old age together in.  Arnold had thought about selling it.  He wasn’t sure that he could carry on living in the house that was so full of memories of his husband.  At the same time, he wasn’t sure he could leave those memories, either. 

Arnold made himself a cup of tea and took it upstairs to bed, where he read for about half an hour and then switched off the light.  He thought he would be unable to sleep, that the strange conversation with the department store Santa would keep whirring around in his mind for hours, and yet he fell asleep quicker than usual. 

When he awoke, it was two o’clock in the morning.  It wasn’t like him to wake up in the middle of the night, and, at first, he wondered why he had done so.  He had been dreaming.  Only remnants of it remained, but Jacob, Arnold’s husband, had been in the dream.  He was sure of that.  But the more he tried to remember the dream, the more the details of it slipped away from him.   He decided he would get out of bed, go to the bathroom, and then get himself a hot drink.  Perhaps some Horlicks, if the packet that he had in the cupboard wasn’t past its use-by date. He reached over to the bedside lamp and switched it on.  Standing at the end of the bed, dressed in a dinner suit with a bright red bow-tie, was Jacob.

Arnold shut his eyes and then opened them again, thinking that the apparition was just a small leftover vision from the dream that he had just woken from.  But when he opened his eyes again, Jacob was still there, smiling at him.  He didn’t look ghostly, other than having a kind of aura around him – a light shadow, almost, like you would have seen on an old television set that wasn’t quite tuned in to its channel properly.  Jacob didn’t look well, and neither had he done so in life.  His health had been deteriorating for years prior to his death.  But it had been slowly up until very close to the end, where his fight seemed to be exhausted after the virus.  And yet, despite that, he looked handsome in his dinner suit.  He always did.  Perhaps that was why he was wearing it now.

Arnold sat up in bed, trying to understand what he was seeing.

“Jacob?” he said, quietly.  “Is that you?”

Jacob nodded his head slowly.

“Yes,” he said.  “It’s me.  I would under normal circumstances say ‘in the flesh,’ but that’s not strictly true on this occasion.”

“Always the one with the joke,” Arnold said. 

“That’s me,” Jacob confirmed. “Are you pleased to see me?”

Arnold slowly pushed back the duvet, and got out of bed.

“Pleased to see you?” he said.  “I would give anything for this not to be a dream.”

“It’s not a dream.  It may feel like one.  And you might think it’s one when you get up in the morning, but this is really happening.”

“But how?”

“How?”  Jacob sounded incredulous.  “Father Christmas, of course.”

“Now I know you’re joking.”

Jacob shook his head.

“Far from it.  True, it’s not very often that he grants these kinds of wishes.  But you would be surprised at how many letters get sent to him from what you might call ‘older children.’  People our age.  And they ask for all kinds of things, but most of them can’t be bought like the children’s presents.  But he saw you this afternoon with little Josephine – not so little these days, though, is she?   How old is she now?”

“Eight.”

“She’ll stop believing in the man in the red suit soon – if she hasn’t already.  But then, when people to get to our age – well, your age – people don’t so much believe in him as to hope.  They need hope.  And Father Christmas today saw that you needed something to give you hope.  And here I am.  For one night only, as they say.”

Arnold didn’t quite know what to do.  He knew it couldn’t be happening, despite how much Jacob was trying to convince him. 

“Can I…can I touch you?” he asked.

Jacob opened his arms. 

“I’m your husband,” he said.  “Of course you can touch me.  Come.”

Arnold moved slowly around the bed so that he was just a few inches away from Jacob.  Her paused for a moment or two, and then stepped forward into the arms that were waiting to hold him.  He buried his head into his husband’s chest.

“Jacob!  I have missed you so much,” he said, tears streaming down his face.  “Why did you have to leave me?”

“My time had come.  Clichéd, I know.  But true.  It happens to us all.  It has happened to too many over the last year or so.”

Arnold didn’t reply.  Instead, the two men stood there, embracing, just as they had done for forty years.  And then, slowly, Arnold reached up to the face of his husband and caressed it.  That felt real, too. 

“Can I?” he asked.  “Is that allowed?”

“You can do what you want,” Jacob told him.

“I want to kiss you.”

“Then kiss me, Arnold.”

When the lips of the two men met a second or two later, it was as if time had stood still.  The love between them was the same as it had been four decades earlier.  Jacob’s lips felt the same as they had back then, when they had kissed for the first time while walking home from the cinema.  Times had been different then.  They had to make sure that they couldn’t be seen when they were holding hands or hugging or kissing.  And there had been no Coronavirus, of course, but there was another threat that would arrive in the country just a matter of months later, and which would take many of their friends in the most horrible of ways. 

“How long can you stay?” Arnold asked.

“Not long.”

“I feared you would say that.”

“You were told this afternoon that Father Christmas cannot raise the dead, but that he could make sure you know that I will always be with you.  I will always be here,” Jacob said.  “Even at times when you feel utterly despondent and life is bleak, I will be here, holding your hand.  We never got to say goodbye on the night when I passed on.  Perhaps you would know these things already if we had.  But believe me when I tell you that, when you cry, I shall reach out and I shall comfort you.  You won’t see me, you won’t feel me touch you, but you will know.  I will never ever leave you, my darling.”

The strangest thing of this unexpected meeting was that the two men had no idea of how best to use their small amount of time together.  Talk seemed so redundant.  Love-making would seem wrong.  And so it was that the two men lay down on the bed, with Arnold’s head resting on Jacob’s chest, and his arm holding him close.  They didn’t speak.  They barely moved.  They just shared their love of each other through the simple act of a cuddle. 

For the first time since Jacob had died, Arnold was at peace, but he knew that, if he eventually fell asleep, Jacob would not be there when he awoke.  And yet, of course, the inevitable happened, and Arnold did doze off while holding his love of four decades. 

When he awoke, several hours later, the first thing that he did was to look across at the other side of the double bed.  He instinctively knew that it was empty, but he had to look just to make sure.  It had been a dream, after all, probably sparked by that strange conversation with Father Christmas the previous afternoon. 

Utterly devastated, Arnold got out of bed, put his feet into his slippers, and wrapped his dressing gown around him.  He slowly walked down the stairs and into the kitchen to switch the kettle on to make himself some tea. 

Propped up against the kettle was a Christmas card, which had not been there night before.  Arnold picked it up and opened the envelope. The front of the card had a picture of Father Christmas in his grotto, talking to a child.  Arnold opened the card.  Inside was shaky handwriting that he recognised at once.   It read as follows:

To Arnold,

I love you with all of my heart, and remember that,

despite the fact you can no longer see me, I shall always be by your side. 

Lots of love, my darling. 

Jacob

xxx

Arnold cried.  He had no real notion of whether they were tears of joy or of sadness.  He looked at the card, knowing that there was no real explanation as to how it got there, or how it had Jacob’s handwriting in it.  After some minutes of crying and trying to pull himself together, Arnold took the card into the living room and stood it on the mantelpiece.  Then he picked up his mug from the coffee table, and took it through into the kitchen.  Beside the kettle now was the red bow-tie that Jacob had worn just a few hours earlier. 

Later that day, Arnold decided that he would return to see Father Christmas in his grotto at the department store, in order to thank him for what he had said and done.  But the grotto wasn’t there.  When he asked a shop assistant what had happened to it, he was told that there had been no grotto this year, mostly due to concerns over social distancing and a lack of ventilation in what was a small space.  Arnold thanked him for his time and went home.